Successes and struggles...

So I've been struggling a lot in the last week with the diet. Last saturday when I went to the zoo with my sister in law and families my daughter decided to eat my kale chips I had packed as my snack. I had left my lunchin the cooler bag as we were supposed to be out of there by 11:30 and with my snack I figured I'd have no issues waiting. Well, without my snack and the heat of the AM, I was dizzy and starving. So I had a couple of bites of Quinn's egg wrap. Which turned into a muffin while on the way home, even though I had eaten my lunch.

Then later in the week it was a fry. Then a bite of Quinn's rice crispy square. This weekend we were at a wedding. I thought there was tossed salad and roast beef. Turns out, nope. The closest I was able to come to not cheating was the cabbage from around a cabbage roll, a bunch of dill pickles- YUCK- and some roast beef. So I had some bites of the cabbage roll filling as well. And then I figured, meh I've already cheated so I had a piece of wedding cake.

So now, here I am 2 weeks into the diet and on week two I had some kind of cheat every other day. And particularly today, after the wedding, I feel bloated and terrible.

The worst part is, I weighed in on WEdnesday. 10 days into the diet I was 5.5 lbs down and 6.5 inches lost, including 2 on my waist. I felt incredible on Wednesday. People at work were already telling me they can see it. I don't want to cheat. I want to lose this weight. But I look towards the week ahead and Thursday we leave for consort. Thursday night I have no control over the menu for supper. Its at my best friend's mother's house- people I haven't seen in close to 5 years. And its a birthday party for her 4 year old.

Then Friday is my 30th birthday. I have said from the beginning I knew I would cheat with birthday cake that day. but that was the only day I was going to cheat. I don't think it'll be too hard. My family are meat eaters. If I pack the veggies I should be able to eat well this weekend. But its the road. ugh, traveling makes me munch!

So I'm thrilled with the success I have had but I know the science of the diet is that its 3 days before the pancreas relaxes. So last night I would have "woken up" my pancreas. I have 3 days today (taking me to wednesday) before it sleeps and I can start losing weight again. I weigh in on wednesday. The scale was up 2 lbs this AM. Friday I cheat again, Tuesday I'm losing weight again. Wednesday I weigh in. So my goal for the next two weeks is to cheat once. On friday. If I have to. Maybe my family won't bake me a cake! :)